For some reason, I feel like I could cry. Having just to sit here doing nothing. Useless with nothing useful to say.
My best friend Alice lives in Northern California around the Oakland area. I met her through her sister Melody who is one year older than me. Alice is in 7th grade and yet when I talk to both of them, I feel they are like sisters to me, especially Alice, sisters of my age.
Well, here's the story:
Alice's mom's neighboring friend knew this guy in Shangai who was a famous Chinese dancer. And Alice and Melody did ballet. So she asked the guy, whose name is George, to teach Alice Chinese dancing. Later on though, he began to stay for dinner and the way he taught her, bugged her. So her dad, sister, and her began get a bit annoyed of George, but their mom began to love him.
Her mom began sending more emails to him, calling him for hours, and lying to the family. I can't exactly give the whole story because I am afraid of giving wrong facts...I just can't say it all...But her family began to fall apart like...a piece being ripped out of you... Because months later, she's packing up fighting with their dad, and she left...with George... Alice has so many problems in her life and always worried me and my friend Brian, her boyfriend, whenever she mentions probably going for a walk...which means there's a chance that she might be commiting suicide... Drives me crazy, but now, I'm not really worried about her killing herself. All I want to be right now is with Alice right now. To be there as she cries her heart out, confused...Me sitting here down in Southern California, in front of a laptop...cell phone right there next to me for me to call her...
How useless I must feel right now. If I could, I would get a trainride all the way down there and hug her to death and let her cry in my shirt as I hug her. I hate to see her suffer like this most of the time...especially now. I couldn't believe her mom...And I wanted to beat the cr_p out of George so bad, for tricking her mom into trying to steal the family's fortune and breaking apart the family.
The worst thing too is that he's done this before. He even had a girlfriend as he was having an affair with their mom. His wife who left him to go back to China says, he always does this to nice-looking women and is money hungry...I know revenge isn't the answer, but I wish something bad would happen to him, jail at least, I don't know...karma...you know...Their mom? I don't know what to say. But I know Alice is having confusion about what to think right now...hate her...pity her?...miss her? I mean before George came along, she tells me she was "alright" as any kid I suppose would say. But I bet her dad is crushed. I haven't really had much status from Melody in awhile though...but based on her Myspace right now, she f_cking hates her life...but she is not emo.
I wish...So much, to be there with Alice...
2 hours later...
Sorry, had to leave cousin's house and got distracted...On the way home, I wanted to break the radio and punch my brother's face to shut up and stop being so loud... I felt angry and sad. I relaxed afterwards in the shower though...I realized I forgot my cell phone at my cousins, but I really wanted to call Alice as I promised myself before. I asked my mom for her cell phone and called my cousin to check the number on my cell phone.
I checked up on her and she seemed to be feeling a bit better; though, I could tell through her voice she was crying. She's distracting herself with TV though...I feel more relieved and she felt happier for my calling and wanting to be there with her...to give her that one big hug...
And I feel a bit more relieved...at the same time, I still wish I could be sitting next to her to support her the whole time.
My best friend Alice lives in Northern California around the Oakland area. I met her through her sister Melody who is one year older than me. Alice is in 7th grade and yet when I talk to both of them, I feel they are like sisters to me, especially Alice, sisters of my age.
Well, here's the story:
Alice's mom's neighboring friend knew this guy in Shangai who was a famous Chinese dancer. And Alice and Melody did ballet. So she asked the guy, whose name is George, to teach Alice Chinese dancing. Later on though, he began to stay for dinner and the way he taught her, bugged her. So her dad, sister, and her began get a bit annoyed of George, but their mom began to love him.
Her mom began sending more emails to him, calling him for hours, and lying to the family. I can't exactly give the whole story because I am afraid of giving wrong facts...I just can't say it all...But her family began to fall apart like...a piece being ripped out of you... Because months later, she's packing up fighting with their dad, and she left...with George... Alice has so many problems in her life and always worried me and my friend Brian, her boyfriend, whenever she mentions probably going for a walk...which means there's a chance that she might be commiting suicide... Drives me crazy, but now, I'm not really worried about her killing herself. All I want to be right now is with Alice right now. To be there as she cries her heart out, confused...Me sitting here down in Southern California, in front of a laptop...cell phone right there next to me for me to call her...
How useless I must feel right now. If I could, I would get a trainride all the way down there and hug her to death and let her cry in my shirt as I hug her. I hate to see her suffer like this most of the time...especially now. I couldn't believe her mom...And I wanted to beat the cr_p out of George so bad, for tricking her mom into trying to steal the family's fortune and breaking apart the family.
The worst thing too is that he's done this before. He even had a girlfriend as he was having an affair with their mom. His wife who left him to go back to China says, he always does this to nice-looking women and is money hungry...I know revenge isn't the answer, but I wish something bad would happen to him, jail at least, I don't know...karma...you know...Their mom? I don't know what to say. But I know Alice is having confusion about what to think right now...hate her...pity her?...miss her? I mean before George came along, she tells me she was "alright" as any kid I suppose would say. But I bet her dad is crushed. I haven't really had much status from Melody in awhile though...but based on her Myspace right now, she f_cking hates her life...but she is not emo.
I wish...So much, to be there with Alice...
2 hours later...
Sorry, had to leave cousin's house and got distracted...On the way home, I wanted to break the radio and punch my brother's face to shut up and stop being so loud... I felt angry and sad. I relaxed afterwards in the shower though...I realized I forgot my cell phone at my cousins, but I really wanted to call Alice as I promised myself before. I asked my mom for her cell phone and called my cousin to check the number on my cell phone.
I checked up on her and she seemed to be feeling a bit better; though, I could tell through her voice she was crying. She's distracting herself with TV though...I feel more relieved and she felt happier for my calling and wanting to be there with her...to give her that one big hug...
And I feel a bit more relieved...at the same time, I still wish I could be sitting next to her to support her the whole time.
3 comments:
I admire your willingness to care for your friends, but realize that sometimes there's only so much we can do.
And it's not your fault things are turning out the way they are.
For those to whom the fault belongs, they'll get their just desserts one day, if not in this age, in the next for sure.
Don't kid yourself.
You are a great gift to her.
You are her friend.
Weather or not you can do anything is completely irrelevant.
Because of you she AT LEAST one person in this world cares for her. That's all anyone could ever ask for.
For one person to care. For one person to love.
Simply being her friend is helping her.
In fact, that's exactly what you can do. You can be her friend. You can call her. You can care about her. You can send her virtual hugs through emails.
That's what you can do.
I'm not sure if I make any sense to you (I quite often do not), but just know that simply being her friend in the first place is the best way you could ever help. You won't ever be able to top that.
Wow. I just realized how many spelling and grammatical mistakes I had in that post.
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