Why is it that all the problems come down on me all at once? Maybe I'll just get to the point.
I'm grounded...
That's the last thing I ever needed...
I always had a problems with my memory. Where for any moment, I could forget what to say or what I was doing, and I wouldn't remember what I was going to say, do, or where it was taking place until a few minutes later...seconds, later...eventually...never? How inconvenient.
I lost my retainers for the 2nd time. Ouch? Yes. So now I need to go find them...or else I'm grounded...forever? I'm grounded until I find them. No computer in my room, no phone (not that I call people a lot), not allowed to walk with Kevin home (even more ouch...), I have to do homework in the dining room (not so bad, along with the computer thing, it's just I can't blog at home when I want or talk to my distant friends for a bit). I'll just blog and all that stuff at school and write my blog posts on a journal. This is sure gonna make my day until I find it...yeah right...
(To Zack) The other direction? Sorry to disappoint you.
Can't think about anything else to type. So I'll end it here.
I'm grounded...
That's the last thing I ever needed...
I always had a problems with my memory. Where for any moment, I could forget what to say or what I was doing, and I wouldn't remember what I was going to say, do, or where it was taking place until a few minutes later...seconds, later...eventually...never? How inconvenient.
I lost my retainers for the 2nd time. Ouch? Yes. So now I need to go find them...or else I'm grounded...forever? I'm grounded until I find them. No computer in my room, no phone (not that I call people a lot), not allowed to walk with Kevin home (even more ouch...), I have to do homework in the dining room (not so bad, along with the computer thing, it's just I can't blog at home when I want or talk to my distant friends for a bit). I'll just blog and all that stuff at school and write my blog posts on a journal. This is sure gonna make my day until I find it...yeah right...
(To Zack) The other direction? Sorry to disappoint you.
Can't think about anything else to type. So I'll end it here.
4 comments:
That's not what I meant. When I said the "other direction" I meant that you just need to pull things together internally. Externally (i.e. being grounded) you seem to be fine. Being grounded for losing your retainer isn't such a big dramatic disaster. It's more of a speed bump. It'll pass more easily than feeling depressed.
I'm not disappointed. I have faith that everything will be better eventually.
Oh... and good luck finding the retainer.
I'm glad you find solace in writing; I know it helps vent frustration, disappointment, confusion, bitterness – sighs and tears. Sometimes, it's alright to give the occasional "I hate my life" – better than letting it fester and eat at you from the inside.
You may be expecting too much from Kevin, or from yourself. And think about it:
Three months is not a long time.
Not everyone has a best friend to share high school with.
Sometimes, getting into a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship is just opening the door for complications to your friendship (obligations, failure to fulfill them, disappointment, disillusionment, etc). Maybe that's not what you want to hear, but perhaps best friends is better than bfgf – at least at this point in your life.
Whatever happens, time heals all wounds. Disappointment, with which I assume you have become intimately acquainted, will fade –
just give it time.
In response to Titus' comment, I'd like to say, in my perspective, not to take it as a consideration to refrain from having bf/gf in high school or to allow your relationship with Kevin to end without having both sides open for communication.
Three months.
That CAN be a long time and you've invested a lot into those three months.
your heart, for one.
and it is this heart which will decide what route to take. Trust yourself.
We'll all give suggestions, we'll all give our perspectives, but most importantly, we're here to give a listening ear and support.
Sometimes that's all anyone needs.
I agree with Titus:
Give it time.
See what happens.
We'll be here to give support and strength, but Michelle,
Don't stop writing and always, always, keep your heart and your communication open.
If my parents grounded me for that same reason... I'd be grounded for I think... 3 years? Hehe I know where they are, I just don't wear them anymore hehe ^.^
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