I don't know. I'm really bored right now and this neutrality is driving me crazy. I've been reading my previous old posts and I have to agree with Titus about one thing. I'd take stress any day over a day where everything is the same and repeats over and over. In my boredom, I also concluded that the contradiction between my stress and my distracting myself from that stress has caused me to be neutral at the moment. Pretty logical in my point of view. I guess since I have nothing to do, I'll write. It's the best thing to do right now at the moment for me, I suppose. It's somewhat hard to think what to write with th neutrality...because my mind is having thought-block. You know...like somewhat like writer's block...Can't think what to say, write, think at all...my emotions are all blocked away for now. And I guess I really want them back. Because I want to say I really do like Kevin...though I can't feel it...stupid contradiction...Nothing I'm listening to or reading is helping trigger it on again, but I suppose I'll keep looking around reading some previous and current blog posts of mine and others.
3 comments:
It's interesting to see how you function in your different moods. Notice that you think straighter and act calmer in your two most recent posts than some of the other ones.
I don't know what's going on in your head, but this neutrality seems more peaceful than the more concentrated depression you had before. The next step should be in the other direction.
I'm stopping here. I wrote a lot on the last comment.
keep on writing.
it helps than to keep emotions festering inside.
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