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INFURIATED!!! AGGRAVATED!!!! AND IF YOU (you know who you are >[ ) ARE READING THIS, I DON'T REALLY CARE. Cause I like expressing myself to the world. Whether the worlds wants to read it or not. MAD, ANGRY, TICKED OFF. I wanna scream and strangle 'em. Yet we all know, I would never actually do it.

"AUGHHHH I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE. I'M SO FREAKING MAD. AND U KNOW WAT??? I'M EXPRESSING AND BROADCASTING IT TO THE WORLD! do i care? NO do i want attention? I'M JUST EXPRESSING MYSELF. and i don't care for what JERKS LIKE U HAVE 2 SAY. immature? yes. do i care?NO" was my Facebook and Yahoo Messenger status.

Some guy I knew and wasn't much close friends with IMs me on Facebook. We have a normal conversation when it later came into academics and he mentioned how "gay" AP Euro was because of their style of teaching, unlike how college would be. And after I mentioned honors, things went way out of hand. He judged how pathetic and immature I was, and the way he gave details, it sounded like he was checking up from time to time on me. (stalker...?) And keeps telling me I just ask for attention. I got....angry though I didn't say anything (obviously to him, he probably would expect me to get angry since he kept judging me with my emotions and status's. Insecure...no new friends. Always band. What accomplishments and benifits will newspaper give or has given me? No new clubs and all that crap...I act young ("Exactly. You act young ALL the time") I DO NOT and yet you say from what I see. I'm way more than what you can see. You just don't want to read the book. Exactly.

I want attention. I demand attention. I show insecurity with my friends. I never ask people out.

So if I want attention, it isn't exactly a bad thing. Everyone needs attention. Otherwise they would be lonely in life. (of course, I could hear a stupid response to counter that). I demand attention? And my status's prove it all. Status, blog, etc. etc. I have free will to express myself however I want and if you think that I'm pathetic for being so immature in such a way with my emotions, go ahead and say all you want. There's more people than just you in this world for me to deal with. Why should you make an impact or matter at all to me? "Listing your friends on your myspace shows u are insecure..." Insecure, my butt. "Are you just using thesauraus for every word you use in Baron Banner? Are you just trying to [sound smart] and call me a loser?" fjdslafjsla;fja

IMMATURE?!?!!? I CAN BE MATURE. I HAVE BEEN MATURE. THIS IS MATURE? NO. DO I CARE NO! IM INFURIATED. I WANT TO STRANGLE "impersonal critics" as you call urself, like you and do I care that I'm broadcasting myself out to the world? Let the whole world know.

I am Michelle Doan. I can express myself however I want, and ALL of it out, whether you like it or not. And if you dont accept it, ignore it and go on with life. I express myself for my own purpose to "let it all out." I am a centerspread layout manager and graphic designer in Baron Banner. Just because I'm in the same clubs, have the same friends, still hang around band, still in Baron Banner, doesn't mean I can improve myself, and make new friends, step it up. You don't believe Baron Banner will be something of this school? Fine, by me. Someday, I'll throw it in your face, whether you'll be like "whatever, I don't care."

I have way more to rant about, but I think I've made my point...

YOU have YOUR opinions; I have mine. Don't try to play hall monitor or patrol officer on me. So don't try to change me. I'm not the one who's trying to grow up too fast. You think I'm pathetic. Do you pity me? You don't know anything and you never will.