Schedule Complication?

I've been trying to improve lately on my video skills and my other arts skills. I really want to take a cartooning/animation class at the same time a video or movie class or maybe do the BBN (Baron Banner Broadcast). But I still want to do the Baron Banner to maintain my writing skills, too and once in awhile my cartooning. This year, this semester and next semester I won't have room for any elective of my interest besides Spanish, but band has an elective period too and I have to take a P.E. class next semester in place of Health so...hmm. Next year, I'll be full again, too because I have to take World History and P.E. the next semester, therefore dropping a class?

I really want to improve in all my art skills: video/slideshow/movie, writing, drawing/cartooning, and instrumental music.

Maybe I'll do the Baron Banner for two or three years, then I'll do the BBN after.
As for Jr. and Sr. year, I want to at least take a cartooning/animation class and/or a class on well video/movie related stuff.

But next year with P.E. 2nd semester will be kind of a complication.

A Close Call

6:56 am. I woke up this morning tired and couldn't help thinking, "Crud! Should I get ready for 0 period or...was it modified." I forget to turn on my alarm the night before and I had to trust my instincts that it was modified...so I set my alarm on to 7:20 am fifteen minutes later, so I'd get ready.

I ended up waking up at 7:17 am and got out of bed, dressing myself as I wait for my alarm to beep. Then my I took my time in the bathroom to get my hair ready and brush my teeth...and splash the cold water in my face to get myself awake. My dad broke the clock in the bathroom the other day, so I wasn't sure whether it was ten minutes in there or so. But afterwards as I sat to eat a bowl of cereal and soy milk as usual, I looked up to the clock. 7:17 am. Wait...what? Wasn't it just 7:17 am a few minutes ago? So, I went to my room and checked my alarm clock. 7:56 am. Looked up at my wall clock. 7:56 am. To make sure, I rummaged through my backpack for my cell phone and checked again. 7: 17 am. My dad must have forgotten to fix the time when he put up my wall clock after he remodeled my room. Better early then late. Actually more like "early." Before I went back to eat, I wanted to check the list on the refrigerator from the school planner I ripped off for sure to see if it was a modified. "Modified Days: ...January 15." Oh, okay. Wait...well...alright.

7:45 am. And so, my dad drove Alex and I to school as usual, but without Patrick (Alex's friend; neighbor) because he was sick and, my dad was driving instead of my mom today. But even so, as we reached school, there were lots of cars driving along the school-side. So then I thought to myself, "I hope it's not 0 period, yet." 7:56 am.

And so I walk on campus, walking towards the gate that leads straight to tables outside the cafeteria where my friends usually we're. Then I heard a short bell. The warning bell...for 0 period? or...

I saw a few people walking outside, but they seemed rushed...and they seemed to be heading to class. "Uh oh." I followed my instincts to walk faster to the foreign language halls. "Why the farthest hall...why the farthest room..." Room 206. I walked faster and as I was right outside the halls. RING! Darn! Saw a kid run ahead of me and had to copy along with him. I ran halfway down the hall, then slowed down to a fast walk again as I reached the door. Room 206. Opened the door, and right away, my distractable Spanish teacher looked away with a phone call and I sneaked quickly to my seat right next to the door. Thank gosh I have a chair near the door now.

So...I missed 0 period. At least I didn't get a tardy detention. 8:01 am.

The Better Person

I wish I could be a better person-- the person whom I thought

I was, but never was...

To ask so much of myself, and to let it take control of me to be

the not so better person I am now.

I've always dealt with stressful emotional problems.

But I haven't learned to let go,

to let go and forget--the absence of thinking,

I have to let go.

To let my emotions take over and push my urge for attention,

to be noticed, not ignored, and again for them to notice

I'm still there--and, yet, at the same time, i play a game

of hide-and-seek for them to find me...unintentionally.

I didn't realize or bother to look, until now, at the texture of

the outside of my shell,

to view myself as a not so great person I

thought I was, despite all the wonderful

and nice things I have done within.

But I want to change myself to be a better person, the better

person whom I yearn to be,

the better person for the better,

for myself and my surroundings.

I will be positive, I will let go, and I will not let it take control

of me, no matter how much I urge for attention--

...because

I am not a burden, never a burden. I will not hate myself.

I am not ignored,

because I have true friends.

I will never ever be that same jerk I have

been, but I learned how much I

actually caused the suffering for

not just for myself...

but for those around me as well.

If I believe I am a burden to myself and to others, because

of this, they are my friends to be there for me to help, but

then again, I must let go, forget, and fall...

and hope I land on my feet

because I will try really hard to learn from my life

mistakes I have come to realize,

to be a better person--the person whom I thought I was,

but never was...

My Small Ears

Everyone keeps telling me I have small ears. When someone mentions it, they all look and go "YOU DO HAVE SMALL EARS!" o.o

Today, my dad finally said, "YOU HAVE SMALL EARS!" when he looked at me for a moment on the way home from Hapkido. My friends when we were in 8th grade said, "YOU DO HAVE SMALL EARS!" after I told them how my bro keeps telling me that. My brother (Alex) goes, "You have small ears," over and over again, and then my cousins look and say "YOU HAVE SMALL EARS!" My mom at dinner exclaimed, "WOW, YOUR EARS ARE SMALLER THAN MINE AND ALEX'S"

._. uh...are they really that tiny? lol Well, whatever. At least they aren't gigantic, but -shrugs- I'm getting used to it. But I'm still somewhat getting weirded out whenever people exclaim and mention that I have small ears.

My New Years Resolutions & Goals of 2008

• Complete all homework, and I mean ALL, before freetime.
• Read 100+ books with more than 150 pages
• Have an article ready each day we have article readings in 0 period
• Work harder in my Biology (especially), Algebra 1 (despite it's easy), and EngHonors1 to try to maintain straight A-'s at least
• Run faster than a 8:56 min mile & a 4:01 half mile
• Excersise and go on a more healthy diet to lose 20-50 pounds (I will admit I am overweight for my height, though I don't look like it in a way)
• Learn, practice, and memorize all major scales on clarinet
• Achieve 100+ suscribers& reach up to 50+ videos on Youtube
• Be able to afford and go to the Bahamas with the FVRR marching band next year (this one, I gotta work on)

Haha, that's a lot =] But I'm going to work on it.