I'm getting very addicted to this song lol. I'm such a childish dork. =] I can't seem to concentrate tonight. My head is blank of thought or emotion...or rather I suppose I does not wish too deeply tonight or today. I'm just having issues with my dad and a bfgf thing right now. I'll talk about it later, when I can think. In the meantime, enjoy and sing along this video I seem to love and get addicted to right now :]
Monday, March 24, 2008
Monday, March 17, 2008
Love, Your "Guardian Angel" Aid
"This is a letter I wrote during lunchtime with a red sharpie to send to her today in mail."
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I'm using up my whole lunch period to write this.
I write this March 17, 2008, but you recieve this 3 days (2?) later.
Please read this!
Just checking up on you agian, but I think I do better giving a message visually in written words...
Feel better...
To Alice (also to Melody):
I know you're probably in a really down mood right now. Though I can't exactly understand how you feel, i want to make sure you're still supportive enough and in one peices, whether it's with tape, or, less literal, a helping hand. Despite what you have lost, it's alright to cry and I'll be there to hug you all you need and give you a shoulder to cry and weep on. I'm always there for you and Melody. Later on or now, you could think about what you have now and what you'll gain maybe and look on the bright side. I know that it may be really hard for you at the moment, but I'm sure you could do it with a little help. I know I'm not really good at helping with advice and such, but you'll always have at least one person int he world who will love you always to support and help you. And you could say, your life is very previous. Just whatever you do, don't do something so threatening with it. Many people care about you. your mom maybe have made a terrible choice, but it doesn't mean life comes to an end. And you've inspired and amazed me that you survived and gone through so much so far, but don't give up. Remember that virtue teddy bear I gave you? It may just be virtue, but my spirit will always be with you if you need help and have no one to turn to. I love you very much.
Love,
Your sister,
Your close best friend,
Your friendly spirit,
Your "Guardian Angel" Aid, (corny, but yeah. =])
Michelle Doan
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Different Ways to Say "I'm Sorry"
Just another slideshow I made out of boredom. Hope you like it though.
Sister
For some reason, I feel like I could cry. Having just to sit here doing nothing. Useless with nothing useful to say.
My best friend Alice lives in Northern California around the Oakland area. I met her through her sister Melody who is one year older than me. Alice is in 7th grade and yet when I talk to both of them, I feel they are like sisters to me, especially Alice, sisters of my age.
Well, here's the story:
Alice's mom's neighboring friend knew this guy in Shangai who was a famous Chinese dancer. And Alice and Melody did ballet. So she asked the guy, whose name is George, to teach Alice Chinese dancing. Later on though, he began to stay for dinner and the way he taught her, bugged her. So her dad, sister, and her began get a bit annoyed of George, but their mom began to love him.
Her mom began sending more emails to him, calling him for hours, and lying to the family. I can't exactly give the whole story because I am afraid of giving wrong facts...I just can't say it all...But her family began to fall apart like...a piece being ripped out of you... Because months later, she's packing up fighting with their dad, and she left...with George... Alice has so many problems in her life and always worried me and my friend Brian, her boyfriend, whenever she mentions probably going for a walk...which means there's a chance that she might be commiting suicide... Drives me crazy, but now, I'm not really worried about her killing herself. All I want to be right now is with Alice right now. To be there as she cries her heart out, confused...Me sitting here down in Southern California, in front of a laptop...cell phone right there next to me for me to call her...
How useless I must feel right now. If I could, I would get a trainride all the way down there and hug her to death and let her cry in my shirt as I hug her. I hate to see her suffer like this most of the time...especially now. I couldn't believe her mom...And I wanted to beat the cr_p out of George so bad, for tricking her mom into trying to steal the family's fortune and breaking apart the family.
The worst thing too is that he's done this before. He even had a girlfriend as he was having an affair with their mom. His wife who left him to go back to China says, he always does this to nice-looking women and is money hungry...I know revenge isn't the answer, but I wish something bad would happen to him, jail at least, I don't know...karma...you know...Their mom? I don't know what to say. But I know Alice is having confusion about what to think right now...hate her...pity her?...miss her? I mean before George came along, she tells me she was "alright" as any kid I suppose would say. But I bet her dad is crushed. I haven't really had much status from Melody in awhile though...but based on her Myspace right now, she f_cking hates her life...but she is not emo.
I wish...So much, to be there with Alice...
2 hours later...
Sorry, had to leave cousin's house and got distracted...On the way home, I wanted to break the radio and punch my brother's face to shut up and stop being so loud... I felt angry and sad. I relaxed afterwards in the shower though...I realized I forgot my cell phone at my cousins, but I really wanted to call Alice as I promised myself before. I asked my mom for her cell phone and called my cousin to check the number on my cell phone.
I checked up on her and she seemed to be feeling a bit better; though, I could tell through her voice she was crying. She's distracting herself with TV though...I feel more relieved and she felt happier for my calling and wanting to be there with her...to give her that one big hug...
And I feel a bit more relieved...at the same time, I still wish I could be sitting next to her to support her the whole time.
My best friend Alice lives in Northern California around the Oakland area. I met her through her sister Melody who is one year older than me. Alice is in 7th grade and yet when I talk to both of them, I feel they are like sisters to me, especially Alice, sisters of my age.
Well, here's the story:
Alice's mom's neighboring friend knew this guy in Shangai who was a famous Chinese dancer. And Alice and Melody did ballet. So she asked the guy, whose name is George, to teach Alice Chinese dancing. Later on though, he began to stay for dinner and the way he taught her, bugged her. So her dad, sister, and her began get a bit annoyed of George, but their mom began to love him.
Her mom began sending more emails to him, calling him for hours, and lying to the family. I can't exactly give the whole story because I am afraid of giving wrong facts...I just can't say it all...But her family began to fall apart like...a piece being ripped out of you... Because months later, she's packing up fighting with their dad, and she left...with George... Alice has so many problems in her life and always worried me and my friend Brian, her boyfriend, whenever she mentions probably going for a walk...which means there's a chance that she might be commiting suicide... Drives me crazy, but now, I'm not really worried about her killing herself. All I want to be right now is with Alice right now. To be there as she cries her heart out, confused...Me sitting here down in Southern California, in front of a laptop...cell phone right there next to me for me to call her...
How useless I must feel right now. If I could, I would get a trainride all the way down there and hug her to death and let her cry in my shirt as I hug her. I hate to see her suffer like this most of the time...especially now. I couldn't believe her mom...And I wanted to beat the cr_p out of George so bad, for tricking her mom into trying to steal the family's fortune and breaking apart the family.
The worst thing too is that he's done this before. He even had a girlfriend as he was having an affair with their mom. His wife who left him to go back to China says, he always does this to nice-looking women and is money hungry...I know revenge isn't the answer, but I wish something bad would happen to him, jail at least, I don't know...karma...you know...Their mom? I don't know what to say. But I know Alice is having confusion about what to think right now...hate her...pity her?...miss her? I mean before George came along, she tells me she was "alright" as any kid I suppose would say. But I bet her dad is crushed. I haven't really had much status from Melody in awhile though...but based on her Myspace right now, she f_cking hates her life...but she is not emo.
I wish...So much, to be there with Alice...
2 hours later...
Sorry, had to leave cousin's house and got distracted...On the way home, I wanted to break the radio and punch my brother's face to shut up and stop being so loud... I felt angry and sad. I relaxed afterwards in the shower though...I realized I forgot my cell phone at my cousins, but I really wanted to call Alice as I promised myself before. I asked my mom for her cell phone and called my cousin to check the number on my cell phone.
I checked up on her and she seemed to be feeling a bit better; though, I could tell through her voice she was crying. She's distracting herself with TV though...I feel more relieved and she felt happier for my calling and wanting to be there with her...to give her that one big hug...
And I feel a bit more relieved...at the same time, I still wish I could be sitting next to her to support her the whole time.
Sunday, March 9, 2008
I Feel So Pro Now!~ (Please watch :D)
"MapleStory~Wicked's "What is this Feeling?" MMV
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My video skills have been improving a lot through the past year and a half when I start off just making slideshows when my friend on MapleStory intruduced me to screenshots. I can't seem to believe it myself, but I finally have over 100 suscribers this past year (I made a new Youtube acc last year and deleted my old account for a stupid reason but whatever). I decided to make a MapleStory music video and test my Sony Vegas skills in honor of my 100 suscribers. (I didn't instead the ending to spin so much...@_@ But I guess it's alright)
It's another Wicked the Musical music video and, yes, it's a Life's MapleSyrup MMV also. It's between the later on rivalry of Jenna and Tifa around episode3 which I haven't posted yet. I'm work on Life's MapleSyrup Ep1, Part 2/2 right now arranging recordings in order, so I'll try to get it posted by Friday. But yeah, please check it out! =D
Thursday, March 6, 2008
Life's MapleSyrup: Ep1, Part 1 of 2
"MapleStory~Life's MapleSyrup: New Changes (Ep1, Part 1/2)"
- - - - -I finally got part two posted up, but this time, my new video is a combination of part 1 and 2 with some improvements in part 1. This is basically half of Ep1 so far. I'll try to post the other half next week-ish. I don't know why it was blurry in part 1 of the video. I guess it just happened when I panned in on the video-clip after i rendered it before I edited it again. Part two after Kara comes in to talk to the trio in the halls is more clear because it was panned and cropped beforehand. Anyways, sorry for not blogging, lately. My piano teacher told me that when I do too many things at once, I don't exactly get a lot done. So I'm only concentrating on two songs out of seven for my piano audition. And I'm only going to concentrate on my video-making for now for my project and so I can get episode one and my English project for Life's MapleSyrup finished by April. Then I'll start focusing on other stuff.
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